I Wonder If Ernie H. Started Out Like This

Writing is…begins when any thought or idea for a story wakes you up…two a.m….three a.m….it’s a night job…a day job… an evening job…a full-time job…ten to twelve hours a day… breathe!

I don’t mind a minute of it…must be crazy…passionate…called to it…study punctuation…marketing…promoting…writing… making coffee…hoping for inspiration…waiting for a call.

Do I really have any talent to write…where’s my confidence… why am I doing this…maybe I have talent…hope so…need help…am I too old…too tired…too stupid…too smart…no, that’s not it…too whatever.

When will I get some sleep…do I care…lie in bed and write… body tired…mind won’t quit…where were you when the body was up…can’t write lying down…computer is heavy…that last thought was stupid…or…maybe…brilliant?

Is that the one that will make it for me…was told not to go with first thought…everyone does…write a book…takes three years…will I live that long…do I care…great idea…where’s my notepad…great!…dog ate it…only with homework did that work.

Wish I could wake up…can’t type when I’m yawning…look at all those bookmarked sites…better lose some…where do I start… computer only has so much memory…all that typing and forgot to save it…must be senile…just lost the great American novel…well, the first two pages anyway.

Marketing is…somebody else’s job…I have to do that too!…is it the same as promoting…heard that was necessary…need to set up a blog…what is a blog?…more money…great!…more research…wonder how long that will take…I am not a fast learner…lucky to finish high school in eight years…just a joke…I think?

Twitter…I need to do that…only 140 characters…wife says impossible…hmmm…do they offer roll over characters…just thought I would ask. Now what…more networking…how about face book…games or social…is there a difference?…won’t get anything done if I’m hooked on games…like I’m getting anything done now…wonder if Ernie H. started out like this.

Need to work…need to think…what time is it?…what do you mean supper?…can’t be…when did it get to be daylight?…what happened to breakfast?…where did the time go…need to get out more…where was I…oh yeah, marketing…the word makes me hungry…maybe if I eat something…else…I can focus… chocolate sounds good…more coffee…lot’s of it…yeah!… that’ll get me going.

Writing…marketing…research…rejections…learning…setting up…maintaining blogs…twittering or is it tweetering…is that even a word…maybe it’s tweet…sounds like a bird…wish I knew what I was doing…on and on and…almost forgot…I need to get something ready for the deadline…think…think…think.

A writer’s world…should hate it…but I don’t…should leave it…but I won’t…I am a writer.

Copyright © 2011 LeRoy Dean All Rights Reserved

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One thought on “I Wonder If Ernie H. Started Out Like This

  1. Just like you read my ,mind. I don’t really consider myself much as a writer but people say I’m good to go. I really want to believe them. Writing can be crazy. I write songs too and sometimes I could be writing2-3 songs st the same time while Other times I cant even complete a verse in days. I get song melodies at night when I’m about to sleep, I cut my sleep and start filling words into the melodies before I know it its 3am. I don’t understand how this happens.
    Nice sharing. Keep up the good work

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